I had heard from my doctor about the possible effects of Seroquel on my weight, but I had assumed it had to do with an increase in appetite, which I could try and control. However, today I found out from another psychiatrist it’s much more than that. It supposedly messes with your thyroid hormone levels, slows down your metabolism and affects the way your body stores energy, making even the smallest amounts of food be stored as fat.
I don’t know if it’s having that effect on me yet, but I do not like the sound of it. I am about one step away from getting off my meds and just going back to self-medicating. See, when I was 14 years old, I was put on prednisolone, a steroid medication, to help with my acute asthma attack. During the six weeks I spent in the hospital on it, I gained over 50lbs. But that wasn’t where it ended. No. After, I could do whatever I wanted – eat healthy, exercise, starve myself – but my weight would not move. It took a toll on me, helped me develop an eating disorder. Until finally after years of being off it (5 years), I finally felt like my metabolism had caught up.
Now, hearing this and reading the stories online, which all very much resemble that of mine has me scared to death. I am struggling to force myself to eat, but I also realistically understand that I cannot restrict for the entirety of my life. Now, in addition to being scared of my mood swings causing me relationship problems, I have to be scared of becoming fat and unattractive. I can’t cope. I don’t know what to do. Besides, I can’t weigh myself until Tuesday morning, because I left my scales at my bf’s place and he’s out of town. God, I’m freaking out. I don’t care about being bipolar, I just can’t get fat. I can’t.
Why does this always happen to me.