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It wasn't until I finally gathered enough courage to attend a local support group that I realised how truly alone I am. And why should I be surprised, irony could be my middle name. Seeing concerned parents come without their children, because they don't know how to help made me realise that nobody in my... Continue Reading →
So for a few days I was left completely useless. Paranoid, irritable, hysterical. I was unable to sleep or eat, and I was hallucinating like crazy. I had never been that bad. What I noticed, however, was that it always got worse towards the evening. I started speculating - could this be induced by one... Continue Reading →
Every day has been a battle. Every day I live in fear about everything. I live day by day trying to hide this, to suppress this... To not let it ruin anything else. Nobody can deal with it and they have said so out loud. It's not just in my head. As if having this... Continue Reading →
After all of the months of moping and not being able to do anything, I feel like I have accomplished more in 2 days than in the last 2 months combined. What a wonderful gift it is to be able to keep going way beyond what others deem possible. I am so exhilarated right now,... Continue Reading →
Do you ever just get so incredibly annoyed at yourself for not having recognised that you're going manic? Like I've fully shown all signs of it for the past 2 days and now that the insomnia and overemotional reactions to the smallest things have kicked in, I get it. But a part of me is... Continue Reading →
I can take the nights I cry myself to sleep and the days I laugh myself to insanity, but it is the days that fool me for a second that hurt me the most. The days when you wake up and follow the plan, the days you go and take care of yourself. You eat... Continue Reading →
So I finally beat my anxiety and forced myself go to the gym. It took me about 3 months... but I finally did it. Mostly, because my doctor and parents have been on my case that I have to go at least 3 times a week. No, I'm not overweight, it's supposedly a must for... Continue Reading →